Alexithymia - A letter of emotions to my love on this first day of 2019

Another 365 days have passed... Most of it in pain and tears.... And then you came as an unexpected warmth to melt my frozen heart in the month of October... You came as a fortunate stroke  of serendipity in my life... The 86 days of 2018 were the happiest days in my life... You know the reason.. Because you were a part of it... I wish in 2019 all the 365 days to be with you.... I know it's not practically possible but still my heart refuses to understand the reality... 
When I saw you for the first time...I was afraid to meet you.... When I met you I was afraid to talk to you... When I talked to you I was afraid to be close with you... When I became close to you I was afraid to kiss you... When I kissed you I was afraid to love you... And now I love you but I am afraid that I will lose you..... 


I love you so much... 

 I love how you hold me....
I love how you tell me I am beautiful...
I love how you look at me when I say something stupid.... 
I love how you make me happy..
I love how you smile when I see you...
I love how you laugh when I say something random and stupid... 
I love how you make me feel...
I love the way you tell me I look cute...
I love when you sing and when you talk about music...
I love the way you whisper in my ear when we are making love...
I love how you squeeze me so hard when I hug you.... 
I love how I can talk to you for hours about anything and you listen patiently... 
I love how we call each other as soon as we wake up....
I love how you rub my back...
I love the way you kiss my neck...
I love how you lie next to me and tell that everything is perfect...
I love how you see the person I really am... 
I love waking up in the morning for you....
I love how I aniticipate seeing you....
I love how I look at the empty space in my bed and wish you were filling it....
I love how I get nervous when I see you...
But I feel more comfortable with you than I do with anyone else....
I love the face you make when I eat less...
I love how you worry about me and take care of me...
I love the way you keep me warm when I am cold.... 
I love how you insist everything will be alright and make me feel that it is...
I love how u make me feel that I am important to you....
I love how you make sure I stay in line...
I love the way you get jealous....
I love how we talk about being together for forever....
I love when you talk about getting married...
I love how you think I have cute feet....
I love how you tickle me....
I love how you get mad when someone says something that upsets me... 
I love the way you take care of me when we go out together...
I love the way u make me feel like a queen... 
I love the way u describe me... 
I love the way you treat me like an angel... 
I love everything about you... ❤❤😍😍


I have completely Fallen For You...
Everything you do, everything you say and everything you are...
You are my first thought in the morning, you are my last thought before I fall asleep and you are almost every thought in between... 
By your love
Happy new year.. ❤❤

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