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Letter with Love 

dated 13th Jan 2021


Do you remember? It all started off with an NGO's event, never thought volunteering could bring me my life partner. Sent you a friend request in 2018, was not a long period before we shared our numbers. From then, messages and rarely calls, that's all I remember. Met you twice in these 2 years I guess and nothing more I knew about you.

Year 2020 was life changing for a lot, but for us it was different. I know it was a surprise for you, even for me. A day, I don't exactly remember the date but somewhere after my birthday, I just asked "Can we get married?". And I could sense that shock, after that I was just thinking why I asked that. But something strongly felt from inside that you were mine. So after a lot of fighting that happened between my sensible brain and my lovable heart I decided to meet you.

And yes we met, I know you have forgotten the date, its 27th August 2020. Yes, it was our first date to know about each other and to discuss if this is really going to work. Took a long drive to the beach and being a thalassophile I can always connect to my soul there. That date actually did not turn out well, your phone kept on ringing and ofcourse that did annoy me. But what you don't know is, I was admiring the way you reacted everytime the phone rang. Something in me still strongly told, there was a bond between us already. I wished you would kiss me, but I know you wouldn't do that so I did. 




After our first date a lot of things changed, we regularly met had long phone calls and at one stage we both knew the truth. But we both were always thinking if this was going to work out. I finally decided, but then you took a long time. I remember the day you told me "I love you" and you have decided that I will be your partner, it was on 22nd December 2020. 

This letter was to just remind you of our journey together, also to tell you how much I have started missing you. 

Our relationship is not normal I know, I am not a girl whom you dreamed to have and you are definitely not the guy I dreamed to have. But still our relationship was cute and had a lot of understanding. We have 99% differences and only 1% similarities, but that 1% similarity is worth living together. That 99% will definitely be the reason for our fights, but only that is going to make our relationship way more beautiful. But I know that 99% will never change till the end and if it does I am going to hate you.

I know how badly you want to spend time with me in this period, I miss you too. But this period is just a temporary phase and shall pass soon. Love you and Miss you


With Lots of Love 

From Shruti

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