DECEMBER IS HERE ... !!!

 

Hey December!!! Nice to see you…

 

December is here, final month of the year is here, wow lets party, says the world;

Here, anxiety pops up all around Chennai;

‘Why do you bring disasters every year?’ ask the people of Chennai

‘I bring happiness and I bring another beautiful year to you’ – says December

‘December, Oh, December, please spare us this time’ – begs Chennai

December with tears rolling down says, ‘Sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you so bad..

My feelings were hurt for 11 months and I couldn’t hide my feelings anymore,

So started crying hysterically…

Should I stop crying and push my feelings deep inside my heart’ – asks December

‘December, oh, December, sorry we hurt you but please push your feelings back,

That would make us better’ – says Chennai.

December with anger and hurt, controlling all the tears in its throat, with a lot of pain

Says ‘OKAY, but I don’t know for how long I can hold’

Chennai thanks December and says… “Good bye December, Lets welcome January with hope!”

December tries holding its tears for another 11 months, before it breaks down again.

 

Is this for December or for ME…

You know what, who cares, lets hold it together for another 11 months;

Until my mental illness shows physical symptoms;

No one cares about mental and emotional wellbeing until it deteriorates your physical health.

‘December, oh, December, can I join you for another 11 months? I need to push back mine too’ – I asked

- Shruti Honey 



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